﻿Miss Brill by Katherine Mansfield

This short story, Miss Brill, is a Mid-frequency Reader and has been adapted 
to suit readers with a vocabulary of 4000 words. It is available in three versions 
of different difficulty. This version is adapted from the Project Gutenberg version. 
It was adapted by Sonia Millett.


9. MISS BRILL.

Although it was so brilliantly fine--the blue sky powdered with gold
and great spots of light like white wine splashed over the Public 
Gardens--Miss Brill was glad that she had decided on her fur. The air
was motionless, but when you opened your mouth there was just a faint
chill, like a chill from a glass of iced water before you sip, and now
and again a leaf came drifting--from nowhere, from the sky. Miss Brill
put up her hand and touched her fur. Dear little thing! It was nice to
feel it again. She had taken it out of its box that afternoon, shaken
out the moth-powder, given it a good brush, and rubbed the life back
into the dim little eyes. "What has been happening to me?" said the sad
little eyes. Oh, how sweet it was to see them snap at her again from
the red bedspread!... But the nose, which was of some black composition,
wasn't at all firm. It must have had a knock, somehow. Never mind--a
little lump of black sealing-wax when the time came--when it was
absolutely necessary... Little rogue! Yes, she really felt like that
about it. Little rogue biting its tail just by her left ear. She could
have taken it off and laid it on her lap and stroked it. She felt
a tightness in her hands and arms, but that came from walking, she
supposed. And when she breathed, something light and sad--no, not sad,
exactly--something gentle seemed to move in her breast.

There were a number of people out this afternoon, far more than last
Sunday. And the band sounded louder and gayer. That was because the
Season had begun. For although the band played all the year round on
Sundays, out of season it was never the same. It was like some one
playing with only the family to listen; it didn't care how it played if
there weren't any strangers present. Wasn't the conductor wearing a new
coat, too? She was sure it was new. He scraped with his foot and flapped
his arms like a chicken about to crow, and the bandsmen sitting in the
green bandstand blew out their cheeks and glared at the music. Now there
came a little flute bit--very pretty!--a little chain of bright drops. She was 
sure it would be repeated. It was; she lifted her head and smiled.

Only two people shared her "special" seat: a fine old man in a velvet
coat, his hands clasped over a huge carved walking-stick, and a big
old woman, sitting upright, with a roll of knitting on her embroidered
apron. They did not speak. This was disappointing, for Miss Brill always
looked forward to the conversation. She had become really quite expert,
she thought, at listening as though she didn't listen, at sitting in
other people's lives just for a minute while they talked round her.

She glanced, sideways, at the old couple. Perhaps they would go soon.
Last Sunday, too, hadn't been as interesting as usual. An Englishman
and his wife, he wearing a dreadful Panama hat and she button boots. And
she'd gone on the whole time about how she ought to wear spectacles;
she knew she needed them; but that it was no good getting any; they'd be
sure to break and they'd never keep on. And he'd been so patient. He'd
suggested everything--gold rims, the kind that curved round your ears,
little pads inside the bridge. No, nothing would please her. "They'll
always be sliding down my nose!" Miss Brill had wanted to shake her.

The old people sat on the bench, still as statues. Never mind, there was
always the crowd to watch. Back and forth, in front of the flower-beds and
the bandstand, the couples and groups paraded, stopped to talk, to
greet, to buy a handful of flowers from the old beggar who had his tray
fixed to the railings. Little children ran among them, swooping and
laughing; little boys with big white silk bows under their chins, little
girls, little French dolls, dressed up in velvet and lace. And sometimes
a tiny toddler came suddenly rocking into the open from under the
trees, stopped, stared, as suddenly sat down "flop," until its small
high-stepping mother, like a young hen, rushed to its rescue. Other 
people sat on the benches and green chairs, but they were nearly 
always the same, Sunday after Sunday, and--Miss Brill had often
noticed--there was something funny about nearly all of them. They were
odd, silent, nearly all old, and from the way they stared they looked as
though they'd just come from dark little rooms or even--even cupboards!

Behind the bandstand the slender trees with yellow leaves sagging down,
and through them just a line of sea, and beyond the blue sky with
gold-veined clouds.

Tum-tum-tum tiddle-um! tiddle-um! tum tiddley-um tum ta! blew the band.

Two young girls in red came by and two young soldiers in blue met them,
and they laughed and paired and went off arm-in-arm. Two peasant women
with funny straw hats passed, seriously, leading beautiful smoke-coloured
donkeys. A cold, pale nun hurried by. A beautiful woman came along and
dropped her bunch of flowers, and a little boy ran after to hand them to
her, and she took them and threw them away as if they'd been poisoned.
Dear me! Miss Brill didn't know whether to admire that or not! And now
a lady in a fur hat and a gentleman in grey met just in front of her. He
was tall, stiff, dignified, and she was wearing the fur hat she'd bought 
when her hair was yellow. Now everything, her hair, her face, even 
her eyes, was the same colour as the tired old fur, and her hand,
in its cleaned glove, lifted to touch her lips, was a tiny yellowish paw.
Oh, she was so pleased to see him--delighted! She rather thought
they were going to meet that afternoon. She described where she'd
been--everywhere, here, there, along by the sea. The day was so
charming--didn't he agree? And wouldn't he, perhaps?... But he shook his
head, lighted a cigarette, slowly breathed a great deep puff into her
face, and even while she was still talking and laughing, flicked the
match away and walked on. The lady in the fur hat was alone; she smiled 
more brightly than ever. But even the band seemed to know what she was
feeling and played more softly, played tenderly, and the drum beat, "The
Brute! The Brute!" over and over. What would she do? What was going to
happen now? But as Miss Brill wondered, the lady turned, raised her 
hand as though she'd seen some one else, much nicer, just over there, 
and walked away. And the band changed again and played more
quickly, more brightly than ever, and the old couple on Miss Brill's seat
got up and marched away, and such a funny old man with a long beard
shuffled along in time to the music and was nearly knocked over by four
girls walking together.

Oh, how fascinating it was! How she enjoyed it! How she loved sitting
here, watching it all! It was like a play. It was exactly like a play.
Who could believe the sky at the back wasn't painted? But it wasn't till
a little brown dog trotted on solemn and then slowly trotted off, like
a little "theatre" dog, a little dog that had been drugged, that Miss
Brill discovered what it was that made it so exciting. They were all
on the stage. They weren't only the audience, not only looking on;
they were acting. Even she had a part and came every Sunday. No doubt
somebody would have noticed if she hadn't been there; she was part of
the performance after all. How strange she'd never thought of it like
that before! And yet it explained why she made such a point of starting
from home at just the same time each week--so as not to be late for
the performance--and it also explained why she had quite a strange,
shy feeling at telling her English pupils how she spent her Sunday
afternoons. No wonder! Miss Brill nearly laughed out loud. She was on
the stage. She thought of the old sick gentleman to whom she read the
newspaper four afternoons a week while he slept in the garden. She had
got quite used to the frail head on the cotton pillow, the hollowed
eyes, the open mouth and the high pinched nose. If he'd been dead she
mightn't have noticed for weeks; she wouldn't have minded. But suddenly
he knew he was having the paper read to him by an actress! "An actress!"
The old head lifted; two points of light quivered in the old eyes. "An
actress--are ye?" And Miss Brill smoothed the newspaper as though it
were the manuscript of her part and said gently; "Yes, I have been an
actress for a long time."

The band had been having a rest. Now they started again. And what they
played was warm, sunny, yet there was just a faint chill--a something,
what was it?--not sadness--no, not sadness--a something that made you
want to sing. The tune lifted, lifted, the light shone; and it seemed
to Miss Brill that in another moment all of them, all the whole company,
would begin singing. The young ones, the laughing ones who were moving
together, they would begin, and the men's voices, very determined and
brave, would join them. And then she too, she too, and the others on the
benches--they would come in with a kind of accompaniment--something low,
that scarcely rose or fell, something so beautiful--moving... And Miss
Brill's eyes filled with tears and she looked smiling at all the other members 
of the company. Yes, we understand, we understand, she thought--though 
what they understood she didn't know.

Just at that moment a boy and girl came and sat down where the old
couple had been. They were beautifully dressed; they were in love. The
hero and heroine, of course, just arrived from his father's yacht. And
still soundlessly singing, still with that trembling smile, Miss Brill
prepared to listen.

"No, not now," said the girl. "Not here, I can't."

"But why? Because of that stupid old thing at the end there?" asked the
boy. "Why does she come here at all--who wants her? Why doesn't she keep
her silly old mug at home?"

"It's her fur which is so funny," giggled the girl. "It's exactly like a fried fish."

"Ah, be off with you!" said the boy in an angry whisper. Then: "Tell me,
my darling--"

"No, not here," said the girl. "Not yet."

*****

On her way home she usually bought a slice of honey-cake at the baker's.
It was her Sunday treat. Sometimes there was an almond in her slice,
sometimes not. It made a great difference. If there was an almond it was
like carrying home a tiny present--a surprise--something that might very
well not have been there. She hurried on the almond Sundays and struck
the match for the kettle in quite a dashing way.

But to-day she passed the baker's by, climbed the stairs, went into
the little dark room--her room like a cupboard--and sat down on the red
bedspread. She sat there for a long time. The box that the fur came out
of was on the bed. She unclasped the fur collar quickly; quickly, without
looking, laid it inside. But when she put the lid on she thought she
heard something crying.









